| 10/14/2008 |
WE CAN WORK IT OUT
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Mark brough up an interesting topic that I really never gave a whole lot of thought. He asked if I ever felt bad when I left a job. Guilty for leaving? Sad to leave friends behind?
As I looked back at my jobs I can't say that I really have felt like that. When I was still in college working at McDonald's I didn't really feel bad leaving that job. Sure, I had friends that were still working there. I even still had friends that lived in my home town when I moved. But I knew people here in Omaha. I wasn't that far away from Nebraska City. I could still visit them easily enough.
My first job at Boys Town I was ready to leave. I was burnt out. I didn't like the couple that I was working with. It was a much needed change when I left. My next job at the Crisis Hotline I was "divorced from the company". I definitely missed people there. One person in particular. She is still a good friend. So I feel really good about how it turned out now that I know our friendship has endured. But this situation wasn't a 'by choice' leaving.
When I was working on the research grant we all knew our time was limited. So leaving there was an interesting relief. Time was running out on the grant so finding a job was important.
I don't really take a lot away from each job in terms of friends. Mainly because it's few and far between that I have worked with people that I'd be friends with outside of work. That may sound bad, but I don't mean it as such. I keep in contact with former coworkers from time to time, but there are only a couple people that really have lasted over the years.Labels: job |
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I posted this @ 10/14/2008 11:25:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
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| 8/06/2007 |
THAT'S WHAT I WANT
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I am being upfront when I say that this is totally a PMS post (Poor Me Syndrome). So keep that in mind.
I just got back from a job interview. I think it went well. It seems rare lately that I feel like I'm not just pulling the answers out of my ass. Apparently I went to college with woman doing the interview. Hopefully that puts a couple bonus points in my column.
I'm just sick and tired of the race. I'm tired of feeling like I'm 2nd place to anyone else when it comes to a job, money, etc... Call it jealousy or whatever you want. Sometimes I feel like I've made the wrong choices for my life and I would lose too much to try and take another road.
I'm envious of people that are younger than me, smarter than me, luckier than me, who are making more money and have a better job. Silly me for following my heart and wanting to make a difference in the world or in someone's life. Appreciation to Money conversion isn't worth shit when you've got bills to pay.
I know people younger who make twice as much as me. It makes my stomach turn. Why did I have to pick psychology? I know people who speak two languages fluently and have jobs literally handed to them because of the demand for bilinguality. I'd love to punch the career adviser it the neck who said that psychology was going to be a needed career in the coming years. Way to flood the market, jackhole!
I'm in a vicious circle at the moment. A better paying job takes a Masters degree. A Masters degree takes money. Money comes from a better paying job.
I know there are ways through this. I'm not saying this in some desperate cry to a world that I am oblivious too. I know what can be done, but that doesn't change my current feelings.
I understand part of how I'm feeling is because I'm comparing myself to other people. It's apples and oranges, as they say. Logically I get it. I get that just because my choices were different doesn't make them wrong. But dammit it sure feels like it.
In a couple days I'll shake this off. I'll realize what I do have and look to the future of the potential that is out there. In the meantime, there will be stewing and some tantrum-throwing.Labels: job, life, money, rant |
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I posted this @ 8/06/2007 03:09:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
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| 1/30/2007 |
LET'S TALK ABOUT SEX BABY
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Several people have asked how the job interview went, so I figured I'd just post about it.
Simple put... I don't think I could've borked the interview more unless I'd pulled an Isaiah Washington and called T.R. Knight a "faggot" myself. Of course there is a certain degree of hyperbole involved when I say that, but I think you get the point. It didn't go well.
A little bit about what the job was... I would've been a 'recruiter' of sorts for an organization that works primarily with the gay population and also HIV/AIDS prevention. It would've involved going into the public, educate people about safe sex, and recruit other to then go out and do the same thing. Pay it forward, if you will.
I am good at selling myself as a competent and organized person who can do a good job, when given the chance. I can't charm. So I rely on sincerity and knowledge to get my point across about my abilities. What they were looking for was definitely someone who was outgoing and had more working knowledge about AIDS than I do. My knowledge is passable. I know what I need to know to be safe. I don't feel confident enough in any ability of my own to go into the public and start 'preaching' anything tho. I'm certainly not outgoing enough to do so. I can be outgoing when it comes to groups of people I know. Yet, that is in a different way.
The interview involved many direct and indirect questions about sexuality (mine and others), drugs, AIDS, safe sex, work experience, skills, conflict resolution, strength & weaknesses. They asked what my involvement with the gay community was. Which was the subtle way of asking if I was gay. I'd heard that while they don't (and can't) give preference to gay applicants, they do see it as a 'plus' when working in such a job. Which I can understand... There was a condom demonstration. Which in the heat of a moment is one thing, but in a job interview with two 50-year old or more women, really threw me for a loop.
I always have hated the question about what I'd offer them in a job as compared to any other applicant. While I know it's coming, I think it's a bullshit question about what you see as your strength and uniqueness that no one else can bring. It goes back to me being charming. I'm sincere. It's like what you might see on a reality game show where they'll ask one contestant why the other person shouldn't win. It seems like a back-handed way of trying to see your bad side.
I've learned a couple things about myself that sort of bother me. While I consider myself pretty open, I guess I am more prudish than I thought. Which isn't a bad thing, but there is a certain naivety that I still have. Secondly, I don't feel I know enough about HIV and AIDS. I feel less 'big-city' and more 'bumpkin' in moments like when my ignorance is exposed. At least not as much as I think I should. There are a lot of things in the world that a person can worry about. Lifestyles. Priorities. Personality. They all play a part in what we choose to concern ourselves with. Overall, I think I should be more concerned than I am. There are ways to rectify this... increase my knowledge and awareness. Yet, no one likes to have their ignorance exposed. Especially in a job interview.Labels: introspection, job |
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I posted this @ 1/30/2007 10:57:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
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| 1/24/2007 |
I AM SLOWLY GOING CRAZY 1 2 3 4 5 6 SWITCH
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An employment opportunity has presented itself on the horizon. With my current job slowly, but surely coming to a end I need to find other employment. The idea of finding another job is not something I'm looking forward to for a couple of reasons.
1) My current job is about as cushy as it gets.
2) The pay and benefits are good considering what I actually do.
3) This has been a great learning experience and a great job to add to a resume.
The job that I am applying for is with an organization that I have applied for a couple of other jobs. I would like to work for them because of their involvement in helping the community. They offer several services that I believe my crisis counseling background would be well suited for.
The possible downside? I've heard from a reliable source that they are looking for someone outgoing. Now... I can talk about whatever on this blog. Most of you who read are faceless names. Those of you who I do know and who know me... Well... let's put it this way. I don't know that outgoing is typically a word used to describe me. I can be outgoing once I know a person and feel comfortable. But to be outgoing just out of the gates is not something I'm accustomed to doing.
I don't have the job yet. And obviously pay and benefits are something I will take into consideration. Yet, I'm worried about whether or not this 'outgoing' aspect of the job is something I can do.
My confidence is only recently starting to get back to a place where I feel capable with just about any situation.
I would say wish me luck, but it's not the interview that I'm nervous about. It's possibly getting the job and not being to actually do it.Labels: confidence, introspection, job |
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I posted this @ 1/24/2007 07:34:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
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