I love it when cute teachers let me take photos of them.
I posted this @ 11/28/2006 05:06:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
HEY YA
You know the song. You know the show. Now see them both in the coolest way!
I posted this @ 11/28/2006 04:11:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
WORLD FAMOUS
Here we go again!
Jen talks about Thanksgiving traditions. I relive some childhood teasing. Mike ponders his son's taste in women.
I posted this @ 11/28/2006 03:25:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/27/2006
ON THE RADIO
How about a little music to start your Monday?
I LOVE her voice! She puts a smile on my face!!
FIDELITY
ON THE RADIO
I posted this @ 11/27/2006 04:19:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
LUST FOR LIFE
I've been formulating this post in my head for a while now. At first I wasn't sure exactly what to say. Then I wasn't sure how to say it. In the end, as many of you can attest to... when I do have something to say, I just say it. Toss it out there for all to see.
There is a difference between lust and love. Most people (hopefully) figure it out early on. I've always considered myself a late bloomer, and I guess this is just one more piece of evidence to that conclusion.
Love is...
You can fill the rest of the sentence on your own, because I honestly think love is one of those conceptual feelings that is different for everyone. What I love is different from what someone else loves. So I won't even try to define it in general terms. But I wanted to mention it first so you are starting to think about The Big L before I brought up lust.
Lust is hot! Lust is primal. Lust is someone that makes you forget what you were saying in the middle of a sentence because you were suddenly overcome with... well, lust! It's a passion filled grope on the stairs. It's barley letting the door close before your hands find a way into their clothing. Lust is drama and desire. Lust is was sells romance novels and chick flicks. Lust is what sells magazines and swimsuit calendars. If you've never experienced lust, you might want to go see a doctor.
You can be in love and have all those things as well. But you can very easily have all the above mentioned and not be in love. For as much as I profess my love for SeanAstin, it is, alas... lust. People I might see at the mall or in a photo? Lust. People in a movie or on TV? Lust. Harmless really.
I don't know that this is typical for other people. But it is for me. I rarely pursue my lustful dreams. Using the Sean Astin analogy once again. I probably won't end up on his door step (without his address). Occasionally I do follow such dreams. But when and if I do... it isn't because of lust. It is because of something more. Call it what you will. It isn't something I regret. Far from it. I can't say that I wouldn't wish such lusty pursuits would be more fruitful. Alas... that is not the case.
For me, love is simple. Love is feeling like you can be yourself around someone. Love is liking who you are when you are with that person. Love is having enough similarities to enjoy the common ground, but enough differences to keep you on your toes. Love is, perhaps surprisingly, not feeling that you have to be around that person all the time. There is no need for a constant justification of feelings. Love is losing that special someone in a crowd, and feeling yourself light up when you finally see him. Love is not being afraid to state your opinion for fear of rejection. See? Simple.
Add that to any lustful feelings you may have and you are well on your way.
It may have taken me 32 years to figure this out, but I think I finally did.
I posted this @ 11/27/2006 03:19:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/24/2006
I'VE BEEN SITTING HERE JUST WASTING TIME
They say that you can't go back... Well, you can. Everything is just smaller now.
I posted this @ 11/24/2006 07:18:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/23/2006
HAPPY THANKSGIVING
Where ever this Thanksgiving Day finds you, physically, mentally, emotionally... remember that there is always someone out there wishing you the best.
Be thankful for that.
Happy Thanksgiving!
*hugs*
I posted this @ 11/23/2006 08:50:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
11/22/2006
THEY'RE CREEPY AND THEY'RE COOKY
Sometimes I need a little help in the morning.
He moonlights on Alton Brown's Good Eats.
I posted this @ 11/22/2006 03:41:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
EVERYTHING'S COMING UP "ROSIE"
After reading the entertainment headlines this morning I was going to comment on the whole brew-ha-ha between Clay vs. Kelly vs. Rosie. But DB has it in much better form. And... already done. :-D
I posted this @ 11/22/2006 08:28:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
1. Explain what ended your last relationship? I did. As for why... It was just time.
2. When was the last time you shaved? Fully? A couple months ago. Otherwise, just a trim every few days.
3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.? Driving my tired ass to work.
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? Eating a sammich.
5. Some things you are excited about? Seeing CT. 'Something' possibly this weekend that I don't want to mention in case I chicken out.
6. What is your favorite flavor of JELL-O? Raspberry
7. Your prom night, what do you remember about it? Awkward slow dances.
8. Do you have any famous ancestors? Supposedly I'm related to Stonewall Jackson.
9. Last thing received in the mail? Bills... :-( I don't get any fun mail. 10. How many different beverages have you had today? Water. Cherry Coke. Peach Tea.
11. Do you ever leave messages on people’s answering machine? Yes. Why wouldn't you?
12. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? I'm no where near a beach, and I haven't been in a while.
13. Any plans for Friday night? I don't know. It's a holiday weekend.
14. Do you like what the ocean does to your hair? I'm about as far away from an ocean as a person can be in the U.S.
15. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different popcorns? Yes. And the popcorn scares me... Yet I eat it and try not to think about how long it's been sitting in the tin. 16. Do you re-use towels after you shower? Yes. Some people don't?
17. Describe your keychain(s)? A fob from Puerto Rico, a lighthouse, Baker's card, keys...
18. Where do you keep your change? Into a glass jar.
19. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people? Wow... a long time ago. Long ago enough that I don't recall. 20. What kind of winter coat do you own? I have a tan suede chomois colored fleece lined coat. It's super warm!!
Only use one word!
1. Yourself: Hopeful? 2. Your Boyfriend/girlfriend (spouse): Hopeful! 3. Your Hair: Obstinent 4. Your Mother: Absent 5. Your Father: Likewise 6. Your Favorite Item: Jeans 7. Your Dream last night: Hawt! 8. Your Favorite drink: Carbonated 9. Your Dream Car: A fully loaded Jeep Compass 10. The room you are in: Bricky 11. Your Ex: Exed 12. Your fear: Lonliness 13. What you want to be in 10 years? Settled 14. Who you hung out with last night? Computer 15. What You're Not? Asshole 16. Muffins: Bagels 17. One of Your Wish List Items: Furniture 18. Time: Fleeting 19. The Last Thing You Did: Chat 20. What You Are Wearing: Shorts 21. Your Favorite Weather: Warm 22. Your Favorite Book: None 23. The Last Thing You Ate: Sandwich 24. Your Life: Rollercoastery 25. Your Mood: Rollercoastery 26. Your best friend: Mike 27. What are you thinking about right now? Money... 28. Your car: Liberty 29. What are you doing at the moment? Thinking 30. Your summer: Handsome 31. Your relationship status: Hopeful 32. What is on your TV? Futurama 33. What is the weather like? Nipply! 34. When is the last time you laughed? Afternoon
I posted this @ 11/21/2006 07:07:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
GONE DADDY GONE
On a tangential note to my previous post where I eluded about kids and family... I bring you this link. Gay Donor or Gay Dad?
I posted this @ 11/21/2006 06:50:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
AGE OF AQUARIUS
So I had a blond moment. (Not you, babe. You're still cool.)
I had every intention of getting a hair cut yesterday after work. I called to make an appointment at a local chain hair cutter. (Because for no more hair than I have no point in spending beaucoop bucks on what takes 10 minutes to cut.) So I show up to the barber shop and they don't have my appointment. ?! I ask for the lady who took my name and made the appointment. She doesn't work there. Um... what the hell? I went to the wrong location. I don't know what place I called, but I didn't call the place I was now standing in.
So I ask if I can get a haircut and she says it would be an hour and a half. For a hair cut? I'll pass... So I took a 'lunch' and got it cut this afternoon.
Much better! Yes, I am a comment whore.
I posted this @ 11/21/2006 04:45:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
LOVE TO EAT TURKEY
Thanksgiving is one of those holidays that, I think, is pretty divisive for people. Either you enjoy the holiday or you don't. Which I know is pretty black and white, but go with it for the moment. Even if it's not your favorite holiday, or if you can't stand the 'other side of the family', you may still attend out of obligation or tradition. You still go along with it. I enjoy a boisterous holiday. I holiday with activity or at least pulse to it. Some warmth. I think that's why I enjoy the Fourth of July, but that's another post.
My family tradition was to get together with my Grandparents and go to my Grandmother's brother's place (Is that a Great Uncle?) We did this for many years 'til some personal family issues caused my Grandmother some embarrassment. Without getting to deep into it, she felt awkward having to answer question about her kids. (Not about me, surprisingly enough.) While I can understand how she feels I think there is a certain point that you have to rise above it. Put aside any awkward feelings you may have and enjoy the holiday for what it is.. time with loved ones. No matter who it is that falls under that definition.
This year is different, and it has been for a couple years now.
I spoke with my Grandmother earlier in the week and finalized Thanksgiving plans. No plans were made that I was aware of for my Father and his family to be joining us. So it would just be my Aunt and I at my Grandparents. I asked when my Aunt would be arriving. Gramms told me that she wouldn't be coming. When I asked why not, she said it was because she worked until 1AM and wouldn't be up in time.
Interrobang.
I know I'm going off half cocked. Or maybe making more out of this than there really is, but... 1) It's Thanksgiving. 2) 1AM isn't THAT late of a night to be someplace, an hour away, by 1PM. 3) It's not like she has to do this every day even if it is a stretch for her. 4) It's Thanksgiving!
For me, this falls under my personal belief that holidays should be a big deal. (Birthdays included). Celebrations are good. They are fun. Unless you have some medically related aversion to holidays it's hard for me to wrap my mind around the idea that you choose not to be anywhere on a holiday. Is sleep that important that overrules a day with family? She isn't spending it anywhere else. She just isn't getting up for it.
Trust me. I say this having one of the most unusual and dysfunctional families.
Playing the guilt card, my Grandfather isn't in the best health. The reality is who knows how many more he may have. It's situations like this that will contribute to me having little sympathy later for when my Aunt will comment on how much she misses her father. Harsh? A little... yeah. But why not spend any opportunity you have?
Now, I'm not so high and mighty... Don't let it sound like that. There have been times where I could've gone down to see them and haven't. But a holiday carries a little more weight than a weekend, in my opinion.
My Grandmother is too nice of a person to say anything. For her sake, I won't call out my Aunt on what I think is a lame maneuver.
I hope that whoever I find to spend my life with enjoys holidays or at least is willing to oblige my desire to celebrate holidays. Because I want to raise our family to enjoy holidays. Celebrate family traditions (even the silly or juvenile ones). I don't want my kids to someday dread and outright avoid spending time with their dads. Because trust me... When I get old(er)I'm going to end up being one of those cheesily embarrassing dads who makes everyone go around the table and say one thing they are thankful for.
I posted this @ 11/21/2006 07:35:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
11/20/2006
ALL IN ALL WE'RE JUST A...
I've been on a self-portrait kick lately. It's too cold and too bare outside to really see much outside to take photos of. Fall isn't my most favoritest season. Not quite warm. Not quite snowy.
I was thinking I'd post a self-portrait of the haircut, but a lack of grey matter moment botched that idea. So here is a ponderous and somewhat emo photo for your (dis)approval.
I posted this @ 11/20/2006 03:04:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
I posted this @ 11/20/2006 01:51:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
I TRY
Have I mentioned Cheesecake Factory? They just opened up one in Omaha. No longer will I have to drive 2 1/2 hours to either Des Moines or KC to satisfy my Factory Fixation. Well, even though there is one mere minutes away from me, the time it takes to get my Cheesecake on. There was a plan for 'Cute Teacher' (CT) and I to go to Cheesecake Factory. Originally the plan was to go at prime dining hours. Well, I understand the error in that thinking, but we were hungry. When the stomach commands I obey!
Well, Cheesecake Factory was an hour wait. Across the street Granite City was an hour wait. PF Chang's was an hour wait. Macaroni Grill was an hour wait. This is only unusual because EVERYONE in Omaha was trying to get into Cheesecake Factory. The other restaurants were revelling in overflow from people like us who Cheesecake Factory.
We ended up at Carraba's. The young host very apologetically said that there was a twenty minute wait to get a table. We were more than ok with that wait.
My entree had caprino cheese on it. Have you tried Carpino cheese?! Oh my gosh! It's a goat cheese with a similar taste to feta, but creamier like a cream cheese. I have a new favorite cheese. Yes... I'm the type of guy who has a favorite cheese.
I've seen Borat, and I plan on writing about it. But in the mean time Wolf Creek was rented... Does anyone remember this movie being in the theaters? It wasn't there long. I think it was about the same time as Hostel and/or The Hills Have Eyes. I think... It's one of the capture and torture unsuspecting tourists movies.
Anyway. The movie kicks ass. Up 'til the ending. Over an hour of good thriller action, followed by five minutes of conclusion that leaves you out in the cold. Plus, this movie was supposedly the unrated version. Which insinuates greusomeness of some kind. There wasn't even any brief nudity. What kind of unrated was this?! I know this sounds like I didn't like the movie. Trust me, I did. It was definitely creepy! Grab some popcorn to toss when things get scary. Make sure you have an arm to grab on to when things get scary.
I posted this @ 11/20/2006 01:11:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/16/2006
GIMME GIMME GIMME
Have I mentioned I love Arby's? I'm pretty sure there is a little bit of crack cocaine in every bite.
Though I don't like long drive thru lines... I should've eaten sooner. I passed out. Luckily a passerby was kind of enough to document this with my camera phone. Too bad he didn't know how to work the flash.
I posted this @ 11/16/2006 04:29:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
GROUND CONTROL TO MAJOR TOM
I love it when my Yahoo and the ads they have play jokes on me.
I posted this @ 11/16/2006 02:37:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/15/2006
YOU SHOULD BE IN PICTURES
Ok... So I've been out of the whole photography phase for a while. But I'm getting back into it. I just needed some inspiration.
I posted this @ 11/15/2006 04:07:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
WHY CAN'T I
Have you ever played "I Never..."? Typically it would involve drinking, but I'm not sure drunk blogging at four in the afternoon is the way to go.
It recently came up in conversation with a friend, and when I started thinking about some of the things I have never done. I'm not talking serious major things like "I have never owned a home" or "I have never been arrested." I mean things that might seem almost common that have somehow escaped me.
Here are a few of the more noteable ones off the top of my head.
-I have never kissed someone at Midnight on New Year's Eve.
-I have never been on a romantic vacation. A vacation. Just the two of us.
-I have never been on a road trip with my best friend. I think he's afraid of my driving. ;-)
-I have never had a good Christmas with a boyfriend. Only one Christmas have I been 'attached', and the gift giving didn't play out well.
-I have never been to Mardi Gras. Though I hear you can do the exact same 'tourist' things any time of year.
-I have never been to a significant other's family's place for a holiday meal. I'm a good guest.
-I have never broken a bone. I'm lucky.
-I have never thrown a punch. I'm a lover not a fighter.
-I have never sang in front of someone I cared about.
A lot of these kind of sound 'sad sack-ish". They aren't meant to be like that. They aren't meant necessarily as goals either. But I wouldn't mind crossing some of these off the list. Though I can live without the bone breaking and punch throwing.
I posted this @ 11/15/2006 02:05:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/14/2006
WHO'S YOUR DADDY?
Ok... first of all I love this song. Then I see the video. While it proves some very obvious things, it is still kind of hot.
I posted this @ 11/14/2006 08:44:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/13/2006
SOMEBODY SAVE ME
I am having a dilemma. A decision needs to be made. Left or right? Both roads look equal to me, but I still am apprehensive (the adult word for scared) to proceed down either.
To the left there is an opportunity. The possibility to do something that seems almost out of character for me. I am considering signing up for an EMT training class in December. I was a volunteer EMT before I moved here. But considering it was a small town, the scale of what I'd come across here and now as compared to there and then would be way different. I don't think the prospect of anything squeamish would get me. The silly thing about it is, rather than worrying about that I am pondering the issue would I be able to drive an ambulence in snowy conditions. LOL I know... the way my mind works sometimes... Anyway.
To the right there is the option of taking out a student loan and and get my Masters... finally. Which brings up several points. 1) I've never taken out a student loan fortunately and the idea of doing so now when I already am getting by (not scraping, but getting by) doesn't sound appealing. 2) Do I want to continue on with psychology. The older I get the less inclined I am finding myself putting up with stupidity. On a more and more frequent basis I find that I have to bite my tongue. I doubt this is conducive to a professional counselor if he is inclined to be snarky all the time.
Which brings up another thing. I've been asked several times in the past two weeks by various people if I am in a bad mood. I don't think I am. I don't think I am any pissier or snarkier or grouchier than I would be any other day. Which isn't to say I normally am. But it does make me wonder what the fuck is going on that I'm just not seeing in myself.
Like with what I said about psychology and counseling... am I just getting older and this is how things are going? I don't know.
I would say that since the beginning of this summer I have been feeling like I need to be more in charge of what I do. There have been times in my recent past where I felt like I wasn't living my own life. The beginning of this summer was definetely a turning point. It was one of my goal on my 101 List. Perhaps, I've swung to far the other way and become a prick about it.
I've never been a 'my way or fuck you' sort of person. As many can attest to I ride fences. It's a hobby. It was a cop out. It was a good counselor. Try to see both sides and let the client decide.
Now I am the client and I've got decisions to make. Psychology or EMT.
Mmm... The choices.
I posted this @ 11/13/2006 03:12:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/09/2006
THE BEST IMITATION OF MYSELF
Maybe I just wanted to dream a little while longer. Hit the snooze button. Roll over. Go back to sleep. Try to get back to that place that made me smile for no reason in particular.
I am at an award show. I'm nominated for Best Actor. As the presenter is listing the rest of the nominees, I am hoping that I am the winner. I have my acceptance speech ready.
There is a build up. I am starting to stand up from my chair because I am almost 100% sure that I am going to win. I was the fan favorite. How could I not win?
Yet... Someone else's name is called.
I sit back down and clap politely. Flushed. A little embarrassed that for even a slight moment I thought I might have been the winner.
Not that I have any hard feelings about not being the winer. "It is an honor just to be nominated." Yet when I go home, it still feels a little lonesome without an award to call my very own.
I posted this @ 11/09/2006 02:18:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/08/2006
FIGHTING THE BATTLE OF WHO COULD CARE LESS
Rambling post time...
-Have you ever heard how they say that your body will tell you what it's craving? Well, apparently my body is craving lime. I bought 1 real lime, 1 fake plastic lime with that juice in it, lime flavored tostitos, vodka (lime flavored), and margarita mix (which is inherently lime flavored).
Besides sounding like an alcoholic, apparently my body was craving a specific citric acid. LIMES! They aren't just for garnish anymore!
-I don't get political on this blog, because I am the worst at debating any type of political doctrines. Yet, I have to say I am really happy Pete Ricketts didn't win a local election here in Nebraska. It strengthens my belief that how we vote really does work and that you can't buy an election win.
-We just keep putting these things out! even if you don't have an iPod or other portable mp3 player you can listen on the computer. We'd love to get some feedback. Good, bad, or otherwise!
-I think there is some strangeness in the world right now. Doogie Howser is gay! (Apparently my powers work TOO well.) Britney Spears is getting a divorce. I feel sorry for the kids, but still... It'd K-Fed. Bob Barker is retiring from The Price Is Right. Now who will tell me to spay and nueter my pets?! Betty White is going to have to start working weekends.
-Work has been busy, finally. I don't talk about my job a whole lot here for obvious reasons, but this isn't anything bad. What was supposed to have been going on two months ago has finally started. We are back in the school, recruiting kids for our research study. While I miss spending my days googling and getting paid for it, at least Mike has stopping yelling at me for wasting tax payers money. So that is why I haven't posted much recently.
So, Internet.... How're you doing? How was your day?
I posted this @ 11/08/2006 02:26:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
11/01/2006
FROSTY THE SNOWMAN
Ok... I'm sure this is just a sign of my warped mind. There is a fine line between this polar bear merrily assembling a jovial snowman and...
...RIPPING HIS HEAD OFF TO EAT HIM!!!
I posted this @ 11/01/2006 05:33:00 PM.............Need a link?..........
THE CANDYMAN
Everyone has been bringing in their leftover Halloween candy.
So far, I've had: -5 boxes of Nerds -2 snack-sized bags of Skittles -1 Kit Kat -Unknown amounts of Smarties
My tongue has a candy coating all of it's own.
I posted this @ 11/01/2006 09:57:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
I'm a 30-something student of human nature. A music-lovin', groove-shakin', laugh-inducin', dish-cookin', gossip-slingin', type of guy. This is my diary of sorts...
