| 10/23/2006 |
YOU DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO ASK ME A QUESTION
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Do we purposely torture ourselves? Do we make decisions in our lifetime that we know aren't the best, only to have those choices cause pain both physically and mentally? Sometimes the decisions are out of our hands. Hopefully more times than not, they are within our control.
This may sound like the beginning of PMS (Poor Me Syndrome) but I swear it's not. I have been thinking about some of these things for a while. I guess I just feel like writing about them at this point.
It never ceases to amaze me that we will say yes to something knowing that we will most likely be hurt. I've tried to hold true to a 'rule' that I'd rather take a chance and get hurt, than not take the chance on wonder. Now this isn't a mantra I follow all this time. But it is certainly something I make an effort to keep in mind.
I feel like I'm in a good place in my life right now. I know things can be improved. Yet, isn't that always the case in anyone's life? I feel like I've finally started doing my #1 goal on my list of 101 in 1001. (Well, it's #96 on the list, but it's the top priority)
Additionally, I feel like my life has gone from 0 to 60 back to 0 and even reverse a little bit to 60 and then sped up to pass a couple slower cars. You would think this is a bad thing. It has a rollercoaster feel to it. I don't disagree. I wouldn't say that it has bothered me. I've been sort of at peace with the things in life that have made my life speed up and slow down.
What I do think about with all the starting and stopping is did I do it to myself? Could I have maintained an appropriate cruising speed and been just fine? Did I have to take all those turns and shifted so many gears in order to get to where I am now?
Maybe it's all a moot point. I'm here and that is really all that matters. Though, I think it's important to learn from our past. It has made us who we are and shapes who we are going to be. A lot can be taken and applied to our daily lives. Why not analyze it?
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I posted this @ 10/23/2006 10:25:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
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