| 9/25/2008 |
THEY SAY I'M HOPELESS, LIKE A PENNY WITH A HOLE IN IT
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Project Runway has been rather difficult to watch the past couple of weeks because of a young girl named Kenley. WAIT!! Don't run off... this isn't a reality show review. I just use her to illustrate a point.
Kenley is going thru a variation of Willy Loman Syndrome. Going through life and career and not realizing what he's doing is no longer what's best or even what's needed. A sad sense of delusion about his own abilities. But this isn't a literary review either. It's more introspective than that.
People like Kenley and characters like Willy Loman are hard for me to endure. They represent one of my biggest fears. That feeling of truly believing that you are better than what you are. That you don't need criticism from anyone else. That's not to say you can't be confident. But to be so delusional that you can't take an opinion from someone else because you're right and they obviously must be wrong. Critics of your ability don't know what they're talking about. That's tragic. That's sad.
With reality television we see a lot more of this. People that think they are better singers than they are. People that can't take a word of opinion from anyone else because how would someone else know what's right for them.
Sure, go out there and be confident. Stand behind the blood, sweat, and tears that you put into your work. But be reasonable. Don't be so egotistical to think that you don't need input and advice from others.
It really is a fear of mine. It's what keeps my ego in check. Never letting it get the best of me. I don't want to be so cool or popular or wise and be so swept up in myself. Only to have a light bulb moment and realize "Wow... I'm not all that."
To me that is one of the worst feelings in the world. The moment when you realize you were wrong all that time.
This isn't a fear of failure. Go out there and fail with the best of them. It's the delusion of thinking when you fail that everyone else must be wrong. Because, obviously you CAN'T be wrong.
What is worse is never having that realization and everyone still looks at you with pity; as pathetic. But I suppose if you're that delusional then you'll never know it to begin with.
It makes me cringe...Labels: introspection |
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I posted this @ 9/25/2008 06:52:00 AM.............Need a link?..........
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